做人真失败

原来活了二十二年，我是这么的失败。第一个缺点也是致命伤，不善以表达。很多年前就知道我有这个缺点。连老师都对我印象不好，从小学到中学都是。身边也没有什么好朋友。有也是不久就分开，我以试着用很多方式去改变自己，可是都没用。难怪男友一个一个都不要我。真是很对不起我父母，他们花了这么多钱让我读书，可是我却不会做人。真是失败！外面的世界是多恐怖，什么人都有。强者都会把弱者打败。而我就是弱者。书读的再好可是不会做人也没用。我真的不想活了！ 活的很辛苦！干垂死了算了。去另一个世界比较好。爸爸妈妈对不起。我没让你们的愿望实显。是我辜负了你们。我知道我这样做很傻。可是我真的活的很累。我这么不会做人留在这个世界上也没用。还有很多人值的留在这个世界上的。希望我走后每人会记得我。实在是丢脸，这二十二年白活的。真是失败！再见

真是的！！！

你常常在我背后做一些我不喜欢的事，可是最好别让我知道，你也没资格讲我，说到我一文不值。讲我之前请照照镜子! 跟她比较好聊是不是？ 你和她的友情比较重要是不是？ 什么事情你都可以向他道歉，向她说对不起是不是？ 对我说对不起是很丢脸是不是？ 别常说我对你报复。是你自己常做了很多对不起我的事还以为自己很对。你这个人真阴险！！！！

how sad it is...

how sad it is when u found out that u r not the one thats living in the heart of the one u love...n the one u love dont even give a shit 2 appreaciate u at all...n he din even wan 2 do a single thing 2 change his attitute to his girlfren.thinking that evtime his girlfren gets angry is just another rubbish thing n din even wan 2 know wads she angry of or wad happen 2 her when she gets angry. he juz step away quietly n pretend he dont know anything at all..how sad huh..wad kind of bf is this..reli disappointed...he din even k how muc tears has his girlfren has juz bcoz of him.he dun even k how muc does his gf sacrificed for him. he dun even k how his gf feel when she is left alone needing him so muc but he nvr turn out, he dun even k how her gf feel when he scold her without knowing the truth. n he doesnt even k how her gf feels when he says, "cut that stupid crying face off n i dun have the mood 2 entertain u!!! wad u feel is juz a feeling n its not important 2 me!!!" how sad.........

why...

i cried thru the nite...
so lonely n helpless...
thinking...
why

is it thru that u reli dont love me anymore
is it this is wad u wan me 2 end up wif?
why

i stil dont know y
mayb u fedup already
why
do i love u that much
why
u dont love me that much
why
am i so stupid 2 blif u in evthing
but u dont even gv a shit juz 2 care abt me

why
why
why
am i reli that unworthy 4 u 2 love me

i keep crying
n asking
why
why
why...
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再见了亲爱的。。。

关心我一下真的有那么难吗？ 我要的只是一两句话。。真的那么难吗？ 我真的不明白。。我要的只是你回一个电话告诉我对不起。。可是你只是回一个信息告诉我晚安。。当作没一回事。。我真的这么不值得你珍惜吗？ 可能吧。。每次我在希望你给我安慰事，你都是用一句你没心情来让我闭嘴。就一句话有这么难吗？可是这一切已不重要了。。虽然心是会痛，可是你已感觉不到。感觉? 你常说感觉而已嘛。。都不重要。。感觉感情真的那么不重要吗？？现在真的是不重要了。。一切都已不重要了。我要坚强做回我自己，不要再等你吃饭，不再等你电话，不再等你出现，不再等你关心，不再等你上课，不再等你一起回家，不再为你烦恼，不再跟你一起做功课，不再为了你一夜不睡觉，不再为你付出，不再关心你，不再是你的了。。。。希望你将来会成功。。再见了亲爱的。。。

Tae Yang...hot guy!!!

how can i dont know Taeyang from the 1st place?? he is from a korean group BIGBANG...starting to love his song...i've post a link of one of my fav songs by him...enjoy!!

hope u get well soon........

what happened to u this few days?? i dont know coz u wont say....even i asked..what happen?? i reli hope to know..is it me who is always bothering u? or u think im vry fan to u since u told me last few days that im vry fan to u?? pls tell me..even i talked to u, u also wont want to ans me..just say a few words then keep quite..mayb it is..u dont even want to k abt me anymore...y m i so stupid..hope u get well soon from ur problem..n i wont go disturb u anymore...

bad day~~~~~

its reli a bad day 4 me..sprained my neck this morning which makes me cant move freely at the moment.. n i hate it when ppl put me aeroplane when he promise 2 go out 2day..argghhhhh....reli bad day 4 me!!!

pinky's got a new look!!

my pinky gt a new look!! actually this was few days ago when i felt bored abt the holiday and juz changed my pet's look in pet society..im stil addicted 2 it...even thought im rushing my assignments, i stil wan 2 spare almost half an hour 4 her *wink*

lazy me...

im so lazy i cant even hv da energy 2 start my assignments since i came bac from sg.tml start sch again..haiz...n im addicted 2 pet society at facebook 2..saving money 2 buy the thngs i wan 2 decorate my pet house..haha..im reli crazy into it...haha...

my pet pinky

singapore trip...

lots of assignments coming up n its closer 2 da due date.but im stil here wondering around "IN" my laptop.which means im stil blur surfing the net, nt reli know wad im doin..im juz bac from a clss trip 2 singapore..quite fun actually but wif stuffs which-must-not-be-mentioned-again..spoiled a little of my mood of the trip..no im not letting those stuffs spoil my whole trip..im not tht stupid ok..we visited lots of places at singapore. mainly studying the architecture.i love the buildings at sg.nice and appreciate them a lot.not like kch.only square, boring-like houses n building r built.mainly coz of money...well, im happy 2 explore the architecture of sg wif my course mates n lecturer--miss chai, vry thx 2 her, i had my 1st sg trip n bringing us to explore the nice architecture...
im quite lazy 2 continue blogging since im stil in the holiday mood..hvn start my assignments yet..n starting 2 get worried of the coming design assignment..i hv 2 redo my model coz it sucks at presentation.i cant blif how i dare 2 show tht ugly model during presentation..gosh...reli bad day 4 me whr my othr coursemates models r far more btr than mine..n im suffering from finger pain tat day due 2 over using it 2 shape the wireframe 4 d model.how stupid i m 4 not planning well when doin tht model.lost confidence in doin tht model again..haizzz...
but the best thng was i finally found m.a.c hello kitty at spring.even though i sounded outdated coz it was on sell since last month(i was missing in action 4 more than a month ord ok) n i tot m.a.c hello kitty wouldnt be on sale at the kch outlet..i saw it on the net previously.actually there r muc more than these versions.in europe they stil sell other m.a.c hello kitty merchandise.and limited m.a.c hello kitty makeup with Swarovski crystals..but i guess the kch outlet wun b selling those..hahaha..anyway,thts d only thng im happy wif these few days..but i only managed 2 buy a few of them coz the rest were all sold out.i even saw it at singapore but i din buy it coz they were mostly sold out also.n the ones i wan were sold out.n i tot i wud find it at a diff outlet but after tht i din c any of m.a.c outlet again until im bac at the spring, kch.i regreted i didnt buy the lip gloss at singapore coz those r the ones left but sold out at the kch outlet..haizz..but i managed 2 buy the remaining lipstick n eyeshadow which is on the way 2 b sold out also.i dun wan 2 regret again if i din buy.hehe..totally love them vry vry vry muc...hahaha...

我的人生。。。2008年倒数2天

2008年快结束了，在这一年里我做了什么呢？？我现在的人生啊。。。可以说是。。。很无聊吧。现在的生活真无聊。。身边的朋友一个又一个地离开。。好友们个个都过得很好，可是我呢。。总觉得我的生活没有了色彩。。每天过着无聊的生活。虽然现在是假期，可是还是要去training。回家又没事做。上网？看电视？无趣。。就算开学我也不好过。。一大堆功课，多到我喘不过气来。还有很多让我不想去那间学院上课了。。很后悔为何当初我放弃了matric...如果我选着那条路，我觉得现在的生活应该是多姿多彩吧。。咳。。为何我现在的人生就是这么无聊。。朋友？越来越少了。。以前的老同学好友，再见面感情都没有以前这么好了。。可是她们彼此看起来还很要好。。可是我呢？？就好像跟她们很谈不来去。。也许是我跟她们读的课系不一样吧。。还是她们觉得我变很怪去，因为我的睡眠跟普通人不一样，想法也不一样。。我觉得我跟她们越来越疏远。。为什么念这课的人就是会变这么怪。。不懂当初为何会这么听老爸的话。。来这样折磨自己呢。。青春期是用来玩的，还有享受青春的不是吗? 为何我要这样对自己呢。。把自己搞得老很多倍似的。。。偶尔还是很想念以前中学的生活。。尤其是中5的时候，是我最没压力的一年。。可是现在的生活，每天就是这么压力，连假期都这么压力。。咳。。。好想抛开所有的烦恼啊。。好像独自一个人去游学，去看看外面的世界。。无忧无虑，自游自在。。可是我觉得这个梦想很难会实现吧。。。咳。。。。