咳......

咳..又是要吐心声的时候了..每次心情不好就是来这里吐吐心声..希望会好过些..
最近学院发生了很多事情..友情与爱情都受到考验..天啊..不知道什么时候那些人才可以看开点,不要为了那么一点小事就乱生气人啦..咳..我们也是人叻..尤其是身边的好友,她是最不好受的..我又觉得很内疚为何帮不上她..之前她帮了我很多人家看不到的..现在老友有难我却帮不上她..我是不是很没用? 咳..求求你们放过她吧....
说回我也没有好过..每天好像都要看人家的脸色做人..实在受不了啊..反过来如果有什么小差错又要挨骂了..到底什么时候他才会懂我的感受啊..整天说我不懂他的感受,那谁来懂我的啊...咳...
今天不知何来的风,我终于会用华语来诠释我的感受了..因为我从来都不用华语打字的,而且我的华语是全科从后面排起第一的科目..我的华语是不是很烂?? 嘿嘿...没计...我快疯了!!!!!!
放假的时候,我在一间室内设计公司打工..学到的东西也不少..老板人不错..还认识了一位好心的同事..他教了我很多东西..也常常对我谈吐他在这一行的经验,还有很多很多..多到我怕到了..咳..迟点我也会遇到这样的问题的..倒不如早点知道会比较好...他说我想太多..也许是吧..我就是想太多..所以才常常误会人家..也许这也是"他"对我的不解吧..咳..不是我要想太多,是你的动作常常让我想起一些事情...还有当我没有想太多的时候,后果就是比原来的差很多很多...我该怎么办才好啊.....
天啊..救救我吧..我真的快疯了啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

holiday?? or boring day??

seems its been anothr long time again since i last updated my blog..finally hv sum free time now so that i can crap sth here..headache sumore..keep on headache these days..starting 2 wonder wad happened 2 me these days..*sob sob*
haizz...lost a lot of confidence lately..studies..relationship..frens..family..think im a weirdo..nah..din know wad im talking abt...juz craps..huh..told u im talking crap here..lolxx..
holiday started n i thnk it wont be a long 1 like the last holiday..not satisfied wif my sem3 tho..evthng juz happened beyond my ctrl..starting 2 feel im left out in this world..no more hope..esp in studies..kinda feel architecture isnt my right choice after all..i dun thnk i like it at all..even though it includes sum design stuff but its far more than i expected..n the most important..it isnt the 1 that i like after all...til now graphic design is stil my 1 n only love..hahaxx..talking abt GD..it juz makes my life goes brighten up..love the random colours where i can play freely wif them..colour is my life...not more 2 say architecture is juz none other than construction..structure..materials...PHY PHY & PHY..arghhHHH!!! hate that subject so muc..haizz...dun even think abt changing course now..my daddy wont let me..wuwuwuwu...

btw..ade left 2day..to UM pursuing her degree in accounting...so heng she got the course she wan...i was so regret i came bac from matric labuan in the first place.so that i wont b here facing all sorts of unwanted problems..even the last holiday which i tot turns out right also became wrg 4 now..uh..dun even say it again..evthng happening around me it reli fake..its juz evthing is juz playing a game wif me..n sure im the loser at last..haizz...i dont know this game will run 4 how long...im juz trying 2 calm down myself 4 da moment n hope i wont end up in the mental hospital...haizz...GAstriC aGaIN...pLuS heADaChE...consequence of late n less slp coz of piles of assignments..haizz...c..even my body wans 2 play game wif me...arRRGHHHHH!!!!!! RUbBiSH!!!!!!! fAKe!!!!!! cant i live a normal life??

well...my hp stop getting sms 4 almost half day ord...duno whr that pig had gone..2 slp i thnk...nah..he never understand wad i wan n wad i ONLY wan..owes help him chap sam nia...waste my time talking 2 this r******

nex week going 2 work at an interior design firm...i hope i can get rid of evthng s soon s possible..so dat those problems wont come attack me again..haiz..hope i can make it lo...n hope 4 da best..change plac awhile so that i can feel btr...

im back!!

its been a long long long time since i last updated my blog...was bz all year..hahazz..finally hv da mood 2 update it liao..actually i've 4gotten dat i had a blog..duh..assignments till hin ki liao..lolz..
reli a lot thngs happened last yr.i mean the yr 2007..friends, relationships, studies, assigments, finals..2 many 2 list it dwn..haha..finally have a gd rest this 2 months +.holidays!! yeah..no worries..but its reli a boring holiday..miss those days "siaoing" wif my coursemates in college..hahazz..dats da memories...
i've been changing college last yr.blur wif my stidues 4 a while..lkw to matric labuan..bac 2 lkw again coz i dun get da course i wan in matric.they gv me acc which i thnk taking acc in private u is faster n better than in gov u..n now ended up taking CAT as my part time course at ftms..so stress last sem.taking 2 courses at a time.n lots of problems was dumped on me..relationships, exams, assignments...sob sob.n nobody understands my feeling..sooo sad..arh!! cant imagine it again..i was lucky i'd survive till now..thk Godness..haha..
Vicky leaving us soon 2 cyberjaya 4 her degree.she's goin after cny..sure gonna miss her lots..haiz..without vicky reli feels like thrs sumthng missing...hope our frenship 4eva!!
sem3 coming soon lo..hehe..anothr tougher sem 4 us..knot play play anymore.muz concentrate more on studies liao..n i cant imagine da stress i'll hv.hving nite cls again n being the librarian..duh..think tiok du hin ki la..BORED N STRESSED!!!!
kinda relax lately..but dat doesn't mean i dont hv any worries at all..still worried abt my CBE exam this month.i'm taking paper 4.quite tough tho.hvn study 4 it yet...lol..lazy...coz holiday 2 long liao...haha...bcum lazy ki..
hmm...dono wad m i feeling these days..its owes playin in my mind..kinda weird..sumtimes i feel it.sumtimes i dont reli..hard 2 make decision ler..hope i can make it clear lo.n hope its true also..n i dono wad m i taking abt now..arh..rubbish..juz 4get abt it..hahaha...
neways, those 2 new shopping mall reli dono how 2 say..boulevard..too small la..walk few steps jiu finish liao..although i like momoe n sushi king la..dats da only 2 shop that i'm satisfied wif..spring..haha...no need say jiu know liao la..reli hv more standard..i din reli finish shopping it actually..got my favourite shoe brand thr.sushi king sumore..bobian..i siao sushi de ma..hahah...
my stupid phone reli can throw away liao..lousy 1..cant connect to pc.wad configuration error lo...haiz..sienzz..cant upload pic liao..
hmm...dono wan say wad liao..coz 2 many until i 4got d..haha..i'll update more frequent lo..since i m so bored..hahah...cheers 4 2008!!! yahoo!!!

b4 leaving kch

its been a long time since i last update my blog..i was so bz wif assignments...haiz...but i am also leaving soon 2 labuan 4 matric..guess i will miss kch a lot..all my lkw frens who i juz meet 4 a few months...although its only a few months.but we r all good frens alreasy... last week went 2 siar beach,lundu along wif all my coursemates and the GD n ID students...actually we AT hv final project 2 do..walao de..our lecturer gave us so many stuff 2 do until no time 2 rest....haizz....5 models waiting 4 me....reli exhausted......haizz....but at least i had a bit fun at nite.we had bbq 4 dinner..lolz...i din sleep that nite wif vicky n julie..n we play until siao..hahaha..wad a nite..i cant blif i can stay awake until the nex morning.....but at last i cant tahan lw..haha..i slept after watching the sunrise n my breakfast..hahaha....but i din slp muc tho..coz after dat we r leaving 4 kch already..haiz...

small crab....

jellyfish!!

sunrise at siar beach

anothr sunrise view

im sure gonna miss u guys a lot..haiz...hope i can c u guys again when im bac 2 kch...frenship 4ever!!

KL

went 2 kl last month n wad i did thr is juz shop shop shop.....lolz...bought my new yr clothes, shoes, a lot of accessories n more....i went 2 sg. wang, midvalley megamall n 1 utama...i even went 2 KBU college s my daddy wan me 2 study thr..erm...went 2 hv a look on d campus..but i m still struggling whether 2 study id or dentistry...haiz...so confusing lar..

5S2 graduation dinner

29 Dec 2006
finally all d 5S2 gather around again..ev1 bcam so pretty n handsome..not 2 mention da teachers 2..sum of my clasmates perm n dye their hair..looks so different from d days in cls whr ev1 was in sch uniform..guess who's da most high dat nite...mr.liew, our form teacher 4 2 yrs..gosh..it was not like him when he volunteered 2 sing a hokkien songs...reli noe how 2 sing vry well without reading d lyrics.high pitch sumore...n he got his emotions in singing 2.can go 4 competition liao..sure win 1...lolzzz...

not 4getting my frens during da dinner..ev1 was so happy 2 meet each othr again aft spm..sum of dem finally bcum couples liao...knot use spm s excuse liao..hahazz...our best dressed male teacher is mr.liew n mr.samson n our best dressed female teacher goes 2 pn. lee n i finally got 2 noe who is wif who during da best dressed couple awards..lolz...izit true dat thr r 5 couples from our cls?? wow..unpredictable...at last, our cls's sweetest couple(no need 2 mention who) won d 1st place..lolzz

me n qi

wif my jie mui

lastly, we gv mr.samson a bthday cake n sang hapy bthday 4 him s his bthday is juz around da corner...b4 going hm, we took a lot of pics wif ev1 n da teachers...such a wonderful nite.but time passes vry fast..hmm....frens, i m gonna miss u guys lots..frens 4eva!!

christmas

23 dec 2006
juz 2 say dat its a special kind of christmas i hv had diz yr wif my collegue.we were asked 2 draw a prs n we hv 2 buy dat prs a present 4 christmas..i bought d present a day b4 dat of coz 4 dat special prs which i had drawn n wrap it up.

diz morning when i reached my office, da 1st thng 2 do is label my present wif da name of da special prs n put it under da christmas tree in my cubical..thrs a small party in my office 2day.all d finance team gather 2gther n had lunch in d meeting room...da most interesting part is we all went bac 2 our cubical n each of use looked 4 our present wif our names on it under da christmas tree n unwrap it....guess wad i got??!! an infared massager..lolzz....thx 4 d present anywhr whoever gave me dat..until now i still dont know who is him or her..swt...sum of my collegues received candles, chocolates, red wine(dat was from my senior,Lau..LOLZZ), a towel(wondering who gv dat), a pen n muc muc nore..i 4got liao..it was vry fun looking at all my collegues unwraping their presents..all those funny emotions came out of their face when dey found wad dey got..hahazz..so funny dat ev1 laughed..we had a great time thr although its juz an hour coz aft dat we had 2 get bac 2 work..we took a pic 2gether..finally i got diz pic n post it here..hehezz

n dont 4get, 2day is also ade's bthday..happy bthday,ade..although i cant celebrate wif u

1st day of work

Gosh..its d 1st day of work at KOMAG..i was so blur at 1st when i suppose 2 wear a special type of cover 4 my shoe b4 entering da building.luckily my senior told me 2 do so b4 i get into d building..i omost get lost when i 1st enter.da corridors were almost da same n thrs a lot of stairs. i followed my senior closely,hoping i wont get lost..he taught me many things 2day.even though i m still vry blur on evthng.at least i got most of my job done 2day.i still left some work incomplete so i hv 2 leave it 4 tml s it's past my working hours ord...i managed 2 find my way out when i m going back.thank god i m not lost..hehezz...its a bit tired actually coz its my 1st day of work.hope i wud get used 2 it soon..cheers!!

damai

17 Dec 20o6
i dont play much at damai actually.juz half day only n i m going hm..i had my breakfast n went 2 hv a swim in d swimming pool.unfotunately,it rains not long after..after swmimming 4 awhile, thrs lightning so i got up n gave up d idea of continueing swimming n going 2 da beach...i missed d beach..haizz...hope nex time it wont rain again...abt 12.30pm, we checked out n headed hm...

n here i m, updating my blog again.tml i m going 2 start work lo...hope i wont b late at d 1st day of work..lolzz..wish me luck!!

final day

16 Dec 20o6
its d 3rd day lo..hahazz...2day is abt mass communication..i dun reli like it coz i m not mass com type whr thrs a lot of speaking n communication.i m not dat type since i m so quiet....less ppl came 2 2day's workshop so we were divided into 2 big groups wif 10 prs each group.we played a game against each group whr a representative from each group hv 2 act out a word or phrase 2 let da group members guess wad r dey acting abt.den each group hv 2 make up a 20 word sentence 4 d othr group.d representative from d othr group shud act out d sentence 4 his or her group members 2 guess d sentence...

at nite thrs a performance at travillion catwalk.thrs da cert n prize giving ceremony.my group won d human hunt n superhero costume making.thr r also performance by d othr groups,singing n break dance.

after dat, my counsin went 2 pick me up 2 damai since my family r at thr earlier 2day..so exhausted.din play muc at thr.leave it until da nex day.....

day 2 at Lim Kok Wing

15 Dec 20o6
its day 2 ord..2day we hv a architecture n interior design workshop whr d lecturers brief us basically abt architecture n ID courses.its interesting tho.architecture was 1 of my choice 2 study.dat makes me confuse abt wad 2 choose.

after dat was an egg drop competition whr each group shud cum out wif a structure 2 protect an egg from breaking when it is thrown from 2nd floor.we were only provided wif straws, A4 papers, selotape, n magic pen.we manage 2 built 1 but dat costs 3 eggs ord..sorry 4 d innocent eggs which were broken when we experiment it..at last we manage 2 modify it so dat d last egg was well protected from breaking.we named it 'THE JUNK' seems its was all wraped up in selotape..haha..after d time is up, thrs a presentation of d egg drop structure by each group.every group tried d egg drop from 2nd floor in d afternoon when thr is a judging session..luckily my groups structure manage 2 protect d egg from breaking.dat was satisfactory 4 us.but unfortunately, anothr group broke their egg during d egg drop from 2nd floor...

we spent da rest of d afternoon planning abt our performance 4 tml nite.but at last none of us wants 2 perform...we all juz will bcum d audience tml nite lo..hahazz..

1st day at Lim Kok Wing

2day so tired arr..i went 2 lim kok wing university of creative technology 2day.spent d whole day thr 4 d workshop.i went alone s nobody accompany me.but i manage 2 make sum news frens thr.dey brief us abt d universutyden we were divided into groups n played an eyes breaking game.my group got 1st..haha..then we hv refreshments.aft dat is d workshop abt grapic design which d lecturers brief us abt graphic design courses...still thnking whether i wan 2 study dat o not ler..hmm...lastly, we had a creative session whr each group need 2 cum out wif creative ideas 2 make a super hero costume.we went around outside 2 find thrown away stuffs n together wif d materials provided by d institute, we made d costume on our model(1 of my groupmates but i dont rmb his name)..i even took his pic...hahazz..so funny n ev1 oso kept take pics of him s a superhero.we named him "EnvironmAn" coz his costume was mostly made out of leaves n branches.....i dont noe abt d result yet coz dey leave it 2 d last day 2 annouce da winners...it ends abt 4 sth in d afternoon..woh..i m so tired n now here writing my blog...tml gotta b more activities going on at lkw..hope it wudn't b boring..lolzz

me wif my group members n "EnvironmAn"